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Oh, by the way, the Warrior post isn't the post that I wanted to post as the First Post of my renewed blog. It's in a current state of stage fright right now. Will post the Real First Post once I can coax it out of its frightened state! =P

Warrior.

I just started playing World of Warcraft(WoW) a few days ago with Bernard and Ming. At first I was very skeptical about the game because it seemed like such a 'guy' game to play. I surprisingly found myself liking the game, and No, I am NOT getting addicted to it. In fact, I actually learnt something spiritual from it. My character in the game is a warrior. I've always played warrior whenever I play online games like Maple Story and Ragnarok Online. Warrior has always been my favourite because I love how hands on the character is when it comes to killing the monsters.
So, we were playing WoW yesterday, Bernard and I, and he said something very interesting to me.He told me how I liked charging straight towards the monsters and how it almost seemed reckless. I realised how different I am in real life from my character. As much as I would like to be as courageous with my daily "battles", I really am not. In fact, my first response would be to shy away and to sulk in a corner about it. That's not who I want to be, a person who runs away and sits in a corner when problems arise. In that area, I would very much like to be more like my warrior; charging towards obstacles and battling them hands on!


Psalm 92:1-5 I want to sing Your joy aloud and proud,Lord.

Time For a Change.

Everything in my life right now seems to be revolving around 'change'. Therefore, I have decided, as motivation to update my blog more often, I am going to change the look of my blog. I really want to do something special with it and not let it just be a place for me to dump random and insignificant posts. I want my blog to reflect all the things that mean something in my life. I actually have a special post already written in my journal and I want it to be the first post on my Renewed blog. So, hopefully I get the things that I want to do with my blog done fast.=)

Spontaneous Idealist.

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

Adjectives which describe your type: spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable

Career

As a Spontaneous Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. Your sense for the motivation of others is almost eerie. You constantly observe that which happens around you and have no problems noticing all sorts of things simultaneously or communicating with several people at the same time.

Your enthusiasm is contagious to others and that is why your colleagues and friends all appreciate you as an important member of your team. Your articulateness and your sensitive ear for nuances in conversations with others obviously play a role. For you, this team-oriented environment is very important because you need to receive positive feedback and recognition like other people need air to breathe. It would be practically impossible for you to contribute everything you need to maintain your high ideals, by yourself.

Variety, challenges and fun are important ingredients of your area of responsibility. You appreciate receiving new stimulation, meeting new people, and continuously collecting unique experiences. However, too much routine, too much detail work and the necessity to stick with one project for a very long time is not your thing. Your strength are creative problem solutions, discovering new ways and opportunities, the conceptualization of new ideas on one hand, but not so much their concrete implementation on the other. Ideally, you have a staff of capable colleagues that takes over your concepts and runs with them.

Love

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time.

With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami.

In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!

No more.

God,
I'm sick of coming up with excuses.I want to stop being a hypocrite.I've always said that I want to live my life according to Your will,and live my life with the purpose that you have intended for me to live by.It's time to see if I actually walk the talk.I'm sorry for the lame excuses in the past,
for the condition of my unwilling heart,and the fear that immediately took over the place of wanting to do Your work.No more of that,Lord,no more.

Brighter Side of Things.

It's so easy for me to just focus on all the sad things in life,to just stay in that place of depression and drown myself in self-pity.Really,it is so extremely easy.As much as taking the easy way out sounds very tempting,I also know just as much that it won't solve anything or make situations any better.It can only go one way;falling farther away from reality and tricking myself into believing things are just peachy,when they really aren't.

However,I am NOT choosing to take the easy way out.God didn't put me here in this world for MY convenience.Me being on this world has nothing to do with ME even.I'm choosing to be less selfish,less negative and less of a scaredy cat.
I'm choosing to look at the brighter side of things.I'm choosing to be more selfless and think more of others instead of focusing all my energy on myself;it's tiring.I'm choosing to smile more,to laugh more and to be happy more.=)

Undeserving.

God,I don't deserve anything You've given me,or anything You've done for me.My life is worth nothing without You,Lord.Thank You for showing me Your love and Your grace.All I am is Yours.

The Great Adventures of Trying on Clothes.

So,today after class,a bunch of my friends and I went to Jalan Ipoh to try on traditional clothes for our Malaysian Studies presentation which is happening mid August.I had to rush through my lunch with Angel and Dalvin because my friends were waiting for me.Felt so bad!=/ Yea,anyway,so we took an lrt to Masjid Jamek and then took a bus to Jalan Ipoh.None of us knew where the shop really was,and yet we all blindly went.Hahaha..but we managed to find the place just fine (Vivian's uncle's shop).Photos below!!=P





I don't have any pictures of Sian.Sorry Sian!You looked awesome in that dress though!=P
I actually have loads more photos,but I shall keep them for myself!Hahaha=P

Childlike Glee

Running after a bus and laughing really hard with your friends is fun!
I miss running.

Nostalgia

I miss being a kid...

Korean BBQ Pic

Sadly I only have one picture..hahaha..

Korean BBQ!!

I went for dinner with Bernard last night,which was pretty much a few hours ago,but since it's after 12,last night.Hahaha.It was our first time having Korean BBQ,so we really had no idea what to expect.We sat down at the table by the window and looked through the menus handed to us by the waiter.We couldn't really figure out how the meal would turn out through the pictures on the menu,so the restaurant owner,this really nice Korean lady assisted us.She recommended some stuff to us and we just agreed to her recommendation.
Honestly,even after her explanation,I couldn't really picture how the meal would turn out.So,we were just sitting there and talking while waiting for the food to arrive.Then Bernard said,"Koreans actually eat very little.",and I just went,"Ohhh...".So,I was really expecting a small portion of food that wouldn't be enough for the both of us.When the food arrived,Bernard and I just stared at all the food.We sat there for slightly over an hour and we were just chewing and chewing and chewing and talking also of course!=P
I'll post pictures when I get them from Berns!!=D

Good Days=)

I woke up today feeling good,which hasn't happened for quite some time now.Mainly because I usually have to wake up against my own willingness.This morning,I actually had enough sleep throughout the night and I really just felt good!I'm convinced that it's a sign that today will be a good day.Today will be a day where I just lay aside my worry about my assignments and presentations.Today will be a day where I lay aside the misunderstandings I had with my college friends over the weekend.Today will be a day where I allow myself to have hope,a day for me to focus on the smaller and simpler things in life.

I had a pool session (Pool Session - A session for Priscilla Chew and Elena Lai to just catch up on each other's lives and laugh like silly people beside the pool) with Pris last night.She came over to my place.She was telling me again how bored she was that day-so bored that she actually read my blog,and by read I mean visited my posts for many years ago.Hahaha..And that made me want to read my old posts too,so I did.I read them just a few minutes ago,not all of them of course,but just browsed through as many as I could.That just made today and even "gooder" day!Hahahah..I realised how much I've grown over these past few years,the seasons I went through and all the old memories that are so precious.Life is good.Life is very very good.Or rather God is good.=) I'm thankful for where I am in my life today,I'm thankful for the good times and the bad times I went through and I'm hopeful and anticipating more to come.=)

Entered

God,I've entered this place,
Where all I want to see is Your face.
I'm tired of living in this world,
I just want to go to that place where I'll be whole.

God,I've entered this place,
Where all around me is safe;
Though I may see disaster in the distance,
I know You will keep me safe.

God,I've entered this place,
Where my hopes and dreams are held in Your hands.
You've assured me that I will never regret,
I will live a life here without fret.

God,I've entered this place,
And you hold my broken heart to Your heart so whole.
You picked me up when all I knew was fall.
I'm not leaving,God,not now,not ever,never at all.

Disaster!

My sister and I decided to bake my mom a cake for mother's day.So,on Saturday,we walked to Sri Kota to buy the ingredients we needed.My dad gave us the money for the shopping.=P We decided we'd bake her a Coffee Yogurt Cake.We originally wanted to surprise her with the cake,but since we live in a condominium,she was well aware of the ongoings taking place in the kitchen roughly 30metres away from her bedroom.Everything was going well until we put the bater into the oven.Our beautiful cake,got burned because the temperatre was set too high.I was so so so sad!!!!All our hard work and heart work got destroyed!!

On the bright side,the remains after getting the burned parts off tasted pretty good.It would have been a really good cake!Not too bad for a first try at baking.Haha=)

Here are the pictures from the disaster.

The top layer of the burnt cake.It completely covered my palm!That's how much cake we could've eaten!

This was all that was left after removing the burnt parts.*Sniff sniff*

Me being very sad about my cake.Hahaha...Wanted to get a picture of my sister being sad too,but she didn't want her photo taken.Reminds me of a certain someone.=P Hahah

Never judge a book by its cover.

In this case however,never judge a song by its title.When I saw the title Love Story,honestly my interest just turned off.Good thing Jasmine and Christina convinced me it was good.So,I did listen to it and I absolutely loved it!!I really wanted to upload the video from Youtube here,but sadly,I can't.Something wrong with blogspot.So,for the very few people who read my blog(haha),and are interested in listening to it,here you go!!=D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys

Woah....

Where did time go???SPM's been over for slightly more than 4 months now!!Craziness!!!!!!There's still stuff that I had originally planned to do during that lost time that I haven't done yet.

No.1 on that list is to get my driver's license.Drive drive drive!!=P

Hahaha!!!So adorable the kid!!!=P

Actually,I think that's the only thing on the list right now.Hahaha...

I'm working on getting it off the list!!Wheeee!!=P

God...

Thank You for the people in my life who keep me going, who take the initiative to care, who constantly push me to do hard things, but most of all, who make me more thankful that You, our amazing Father in Heaven, created them to make my life beautiful.

Elena NEEDS to...

1. Take more photos!!!

2.Update her blog more!!!

3.Plan 91 Outing!!!

4.Not be a bum at home!!!

5.Call and sms more people!!!

6.See beautiful Dylan more!!!

7.Learn to drive ASAP!!!

8.Be happy more often!!!

9.Spend less money!!!

10.Hear from God!!!

Lamenting.

We all have ups and downs in our lives,no one can deny that.One moment we feel like nothing in the world can knock us out of our happiness,and the next moment all you want to do is dig a huge pit and hide inside it.I've been facing the latter a lot lately.In fact,I find it so extremely hard to be genuinely happy for more than short periods of time.People tell me it's just a season that I'm going through in life,that it'll be over before I even know it.Yet,none of their encouragements and advice is really helping much.Instead of helping me through my situation,it seems to be driving me deeper and deeper into my sorrow.I'm reaching the brink of it all.I can't find the strength to go on anymore.Everything just seems to get worse day by day.

I know I can turn to God in my moment of pain and hurt.I know He hears me,but its just so hard to gain strength and relief from that sometimes.I just want to shout,"I can't hear You,God!I don't know what You're saying to me or if You're even saying anything to me!I don't want to have to go through this anymore!You said that Your grace is sufficient for me,that I can always look to You for strength,but this time God,I can't seem to find it.I'm so tired,Lord.I just want out of all of this.I need You,but most of all,I WANT YOU!I can't get through this without You,Lord."

Seriously!!!

Okay!!!This is seriously an update k!!Hahahaha...
Well,tonight I went for College CG for the first time.Taman Desa CG!!!
Although it wasn't really a big group,I personally think it was a great time!
Honestly,at first it was a little weird because everyone there weren't exactly
the people I usually hang out with,but they were all so nice and it was great
fun in the end!Hahaha=D So,we introduced ourselves and stuff,ate,talked and
played a modified version of the Blanket Game.Hahahaha...It was super funny!
The loser had to be smeared with whipped cream/shaving cream.We decided
after a while that whipped cream dripped too much and we didn't want to dirty
Maka's house.By the end of the game,everyone had Santa beards.Yes,even the
girls.Hahahaha...Hopefully,I'll get the pictures soon!=D

That's all for now!=D
-Elena-

Dear God,

Please help me make the right decisions in every aspect of my life.Teach me to lean on Your strength and allow me to understand the all that You want for me in life.I know You want the best for me and I know You will give me the best.Please teach me to be patient and be more attentive to Your voice.Lord,please help me to walk the paths that you have set for me.Please don't let me stray.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.

FINALLY!!

I have internet again!!!!!!Updates coming soon.....=D