Making choices...

...are never easy.For me it has been especially difficult to make decisions regarding my school activities.Every year,we have to choose our own clubs and stuff like that.Since Form 1 I've wanted to join the athletics team in my school.Since Form 1,so many things held me back.Things like not having anyone to accompany me in the club,the fact that I don't like the club teacher and she despises me,and now,the fact that I have only one more year in MGS and I still have so many other clubs I want to join;Handball,Volleyball and some other stuff.Sigh,sigh,sigh....Don't know which to choose.So little time left for High School,have to really make the most out of it.One thing to look forward to tomorrow,Volleyball match between my friends!!Whee...

MGSKL CANTEEN DAY 2007!!!

VENUE: MGSKL(near Lake Garden and Masjid Negara)

DATE: 28th July 2007,Saturday

TIME: 9:00-12:45(If u ask am or pm..try using common sense..)

ACTIVITIES: Haunted House(make sure u come,except guys.Guys aren't allowed in the Haunted house.so cacat!!!sighzzz!!!!),Dance Floor(umm..yea..u dance),LOADS N LOADS OF FOOD!!!,Mazes,games,stuff la..just come n see la..

Come la..it's to raise money for our school.Every year we have to do something so raise money for the school since the government doesn't support us financially 100%.So yea,come support us and be a kind and giving soul=D...hahaha

Random pics..

Amiera,Santira,me,Jaya,Aziera after Prefect's Installation,in our class.

Izzati,me and Jaya.Izzati look so blur..hahaha..

Sumaiya,Levina,me,and Lenna.Notice I don't have hands?=P

Levina,Lenna Kah Wei and me,on a tree.I think this was taken in Form 2.=D

Kah Wei,me,Levina and Sumaiya at the APICTA announcement dinner.That was when we found out we were going to Macau together.=D

Canada vs Singapore

The two countries I'll almost 100% be going to do college in.I was just talking with my mom just now about why she wanted me to do Form 6 instead of just going straight to college.I had no idea she'd already plan so much for my future.I mean,I know she's thought about it and all,but I guess the fact that she's never discussed it with me before this just made me oblivious to it.It being my mom thinking about what I was going to do after SPM.Well,she told me the reason she wanted me to do Form 6 is so that if I end up going to Singapore,then I won't have to take O levels and can get started straight away with A levels.SPM;it used to be like a fairytale to me.I never thought I'd in a sense make it to this level.Not making it not as in not achieving results good enough,but not being alive.I used to think that I'd die young for some weird and morbid reason.So yeah,enough of my extremely 'unique' mind.I really can't believe that I'm turning 16 this year.I can barely remember what I was like in primary school.Being a teenager used to seem so faraway and I just couldn't wait to get my IC.My IC was like proof that I'm finally a teen.Now,I wish I could turn back time and just be a kid again.Things were so much more easier;living a naive and simple life where things that used to be so important then just seem so silly now.The world look so huge to me last time.Even a car ride that lasted 20 minutes felt like 3 hours of non-stop fun,looking at the scenery and imagining I could one day drive.Now,in probably about a year or so,I'll really be able to drive(if I pass my driving test),and even driving won't thrill me anymore.Growing up just takes all the wonder out of life.Everything that seemed like such a task and challenge when we were younger now seem so insignificant.At least,that's how I look at it.Now,thinking of college,it still feels a little far away,yet,I can tell time is just going to breeze by and then I'll be in a different country with a whole new group of people,learning new things and leaving a lot of things behind(temporarily).The thought scares me a lot.I guess life is about changes.No change,I don't think that's possible at all.So,whatever changes take place in my life in time to come,I really want to do my best to embrace it and not shirk away from it.

Biology...

WE DISSECTED RATS!!!!!!Yup,in Biology lesson today we actually dissected rats.We were divided into 5 groups and each group had their own rat.I was in the same group as Jaya,Lenna,Shona and Siew May.We were all really freaked out.The rats were so cute and we felt so heartless and cruel.Our first instructions were to nail the rat onto the plate thingy it was on.The first image that came to my head was the scene from Passion of Christ and I nearly felt sick.Thank God I didn't!We spent like 5 minutes just holding the hammer and the nail,not wanting to poke holes into the poor rat's tiny paws,but knowing it was something we had to do,we nailed the paws after teacher helped us with the 2 top paws.We cut the skin,then the I have no idea what and finally opened up the whole belly part of the rat.Then,we had to nail the skin to the plate as well to make sure it wouldn't get folded and obstruct the view of the rat's organs.The heart was still pumping and it was so tiny.The small intestine and stomach were the most disgusting looking.Then teacher came to inspect on our rat.She took 2 of the apparatus and started shifting the organs around;from the right side of the rat to the left and back again.Then she showed us the kidneys,which were actually hidden under all the other organs,which explains why she was shifting the organs around.They looked so mushy and soft,wherever the apparatus thing touched the stomach,it would leave a mark like when we poke something into plasticine,except it goes back into shape.Then,we also had to check the gender of a rat.At first,before dissecting the rat,we thought it was a male,since there was the 'thing' there.After dissecting,we found out it was actually a female.We saw the fallopian tubes and ovaries.The ovaries were so extremely tiny.Jaya,Siew May and I had to leave the class earlier to go for prefect's recess.And that was when my teacher said they were going to dissect the head to see the brain!!So unfair!!So we had no choice but be good prefects and go eat and prepare for duty.Jaya and me,being in the same department,breezed through our duty and ran to the lab again.Unfortunately,when we reached the lab,they had already thrown the rats into the dustbin and were washing everything up.Good thing our teacher let us dig through the rubbish to look for the right rat.They only dissected 1 or 2 of the rats in the head,so we had to dig through the gloves and the other rats to look for the 'right rat'.Then after a few minutes of digging,we finally found it!!Hooray..the brain was also very tiny.All in all,it turned out to be a very good experience.I still feel a little bad for having to cut the poor rat open.Eventually,the rat's heart stopped beating.Bye bye rat...=(

Pregnant Women

During English,we had to talk about the types of food growing children,teenagers,pregnant women and elderly people needed.We were given yesterday to prepare,but as usual,my group just decided to wing it.Despite the lack of preparation,our teacher said we were quite good.=D Then while another group was presenting their discussion,the whole class got sidetracked and started focusing on the topic of pregnant women.Our teacher told us about well,childbirth and how she had to go through a ceaserian or however you spell it.This is the down side of being in a girls school,the teachers just go on and on about this particular topic in very detailed and accurate description.They have no mercy on us because 'You girls will go through it one day.Don't worry,it isn't AS PAINFUL as it sounds'.Right,that makes me feel so much better.My friend Jaya,she was so funny!!Whenever my teacher described how they sew the wound after ceaserian,she screamed so loudly until everyone in class was laughing so much.She kept saying,"So painful!So painful!".My teacher was laughing so much too.So now,my whole class is freaked out at the idea of getting pregnant,including me.=P Then towards the end of the class,the last group did their presentation.It ended up to be a debate session.Everyone kept disagreeing with whatever my friend Thaaraniy was saying.It was so fun!We were supposed to write an essay,but in the end,we ran out of time because of we spent so much time debating and squealing.I love my classmates..=D Being in an all girls school really isn't that bad.Those who think otherwise,too bad for you.=D

My beautifooooo badge=D

I like my silver badge..hahaha=P

2007/08 Prefectorial Board Installation...Tick...

Yupzz...today was my school's prefect installation day.It was the fastest installation I have ever experienced,and I've experienced a few before.I have no idea why,but it feels like time is just water flowing over my fingers;something I experience,but can never really get a hold on.So,this year I'm Head of Cleanliness,something I never thought I'd be in charge of.I'm so NOT clean.Hahaha,but I love my senior Ellana,and my 2 partners,Jaya and Cynthia.They're such clowns and really reliable people.They make picking up rubbish all over the school so much easier and quite fun honestly.In MGS,we have a tradition of passing the torch,or rather the candle from the outgoing board of prefects to the upcoming board.Then,the new Head girls light some candles and pass it to their Ex-cos.It has been a fun week of fooling around while practicing for the installation and goofing off when we're really supposed to be cleaning and decorating the school hall.Plus,we missed so many lessons.Hahahah..and the teachers couldn't scold us for it.=P Now that the installation is done,that's one thing I can tick off my list of things to do.The next 2 items on my list are the last CF meeting of the year and worship team auditions,both of which are really important to me and are making me feel so extremely nervous.This CF meeting is mega important because it's to steer the Christians in my school back to having the right attitude about CF.God has just really stirred my spirit a lot about this particular thing.I'm so sick and tired of seeing Christians in my school who'd rather do other things than put God first.School is another place where you're supposed to shine for God,not just for total and complete fun and fooling about.Just because our pastors and parents don't see us in school as much as they do in church is not a reason for us to not worship God in school.You're supposed to be everything you can be for God in every aspect,every place of your life,NOT just in church where people see you and expect it of you.What about what GOD expects of YOU??Don't you think that's the most important reason?During Fire Up,God really challenged me to trust Him and put this event in His hands and I do trust Him with all my heart,soul and might.Plans might not be going as smoothly as I'd like them to be,but that doesn't matter,because I know that this is what God wants to see happening in my school;His children coming back to the Lord,turning away from the worldly things and just worshiping Him again.I get so disappointed seeing the CF members having the attitude of 'I'd rather do something else than attend CF'.If I myself am this disappointed at them,how disappointed is God at them?What makes me even more disappointed is the fact that I myself tend to get drifted away from God and to the ways of man.I'm not perfect,Lord.No where near it and I can never be,but Lord,I want to be the best that I can be for You.Whenever I stumble or fall,I feel so ashamed,so full of anger at my own self for not being able to do things for myself sometimes.I get so tempted to cry out for Your help,but it feels like I'm a burden to You sometimes.Lord,I know You want to be involved in my life in every way possible,I know now You want me to call for Your help and to share all my problems with You.Sometimes it's just hard,knowing that so many other people have problems way bigger than mine.It just makes me feel inadequate for seeking Your help over tiny matters sometimes,but I know Lord,You'll still help me and be there for me.I love You,Jesus!I'm going to push all those insecurities away and just focus on You.Nothing else matters except You.

WHY????????(X10000)

How is it possible that people have the heart,or should I say brains to murder anyone???Murder is one thing,burning the poor person up and then chopping the body up and scattering it around???What do you call that?I CALL IT PURE STUPIDITY/INSANITY/BRAINLESSNESS/HEARTLESSNESS/(insert any other insulting word here).I was so shocked and disgusted by today's front page news(on the Star).How does a person live with himself/herself knowing he/she did something that horrible and plain wicked??How do you NOT feel bad when you're doing it??What is wrong with these people's minds?Are they mentally retarded or just plain SICK!!!It's terrible to know that they are living in the same country as you and who knows how many others are out there in the world.How do they bare the guilt?Or are they immune to guilt or something??Reading the article just made me so mad.I was furious and just wanted to punch the stupid person.She was just a little girl and they had to do that to her!!!!!!!Dude!!!If you wanted to hurt someone so badly,just try slapping yourself across the face REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD 100 TIMES!!!That should leave you a mark for quite some time.Why take away the life of an innocent child?If getting a slap is already painful enough,imagine YOURSELF getting burnt and chopped like some piece of meat!!I really can't imagine what's in your retarded head!!!!!!You just piss me off so much!!!!!!!

I love...

being loved by God
being in God's presence
the Holy Spirit stirring me up inside
my relationship with God
being God's child
the fact that I was created by God
that I have a huge family all around the world through Christ
knowing I have a purpose
worshiping God
learning more and more about God
knowing God more and more
talking to God
God....

Proper

OK!Time for a proper post now.So I went for FIRE UP!!! and it was AWESOME!!!!Pastor Michael was hilarious.I was practically on the floor,laughing so hard at his jokes and stories.Right..was supposed to tell you more about it..but I feel emo now.*whacks forehead* So,I'll just tell you the funny stuff that took place and save the deep eye bawling stuff for another day.=D We took the bus from church to GT.We being Levina,Kim and me.We met Li Yan and Levina's cg member there.In the bus,they played westlife songs.I highly dislike westlife!!!!Levina used to love westlife so much when she was younger,she still does actually.So she was singing along with her cg member and dancing weird dances.They were also making funny sounds that made some people just turn to stare at them with the 'o.O??' expression.Kim took out her phone and recorded part of it.Ask her if you want to see another one of Levina's cacatedness =P. So, after everything right,Levina,Kim and I were the last ones there together with Joel(who left soon after) and Rose,who was waiting for us.Levina,being the brainiac that she is,sat on the wheelchair and started rolling around,or attempted to at least.She couldn't steer it.It kept going round and round in the same direction.I was laughing so much until tears came out.Then we started jumping around the place-it was huge and dark and super echo-y- so that the mosquitoes wouldn't suck our blood.In the end,we followed Rose to the South Pacific Restaurant in around PJ since it was already super late.Levina's mom picked us up from there.During the ride there,we sat on Rose's car seat.Let me elaborate on that.Rose's car seat was folded since half the keyboard was poking out of the boot.The boot wasn't big enough to fit the keyboard,so half of it was protruding through where the seat was supposed to be.So it was also sitting on the seat with Levina and me.We looked like super tall people whose bodies were too long for the car until our heads were bent to one side since there wasn't enough space to sit upright and not be stopped by the ceiling.Hahaha..If you don't get it,it's ok.I'm not sure I'm speaking english right now either.Feeling a little light headed and my eye is swollen.WHOOPEE!!I shall leave the computer now..Farewell!!!=D

Just Had To..hahaha

You Are 12% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world. And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

I laughed so hard reading the description...

Elena Doodles...

Something I did during 2 periods of Physics and 2 periods of Biology.We're dissecting rats next week!!!AHHHH!!!Excited or Terrified??

Of Amazingly Ordinary Days

It's so amazing when sometimes you're just going through your day and the simple things just trigger the Holy Spirit inside us.When you feel like today's nothing special and it's just another day you have to spend doing the same things again.I've never felt so connected to the world like I do now.It's like having a private movie playing in my head showing me scenes of the many people around the world.Faces I don't know just appear and it's as if I can feel the things they're feeling now;happiness,pain,anger,frustration,love,sympathy.I love the fact that even though there are over I don't know how many billion people in the world,we're all connected in some special and unique way.We all have similar thoughts,opinions,feelings about at least one thing in our lives.God just gets you thinking about the thing you want to do the most despite the tight schedules and the busyness we tend to get caught up in.He starts questioning me about my plan for the future and how committed I will be to get that plan started.Journeys are never easy,but they are very simple.A journey,to me,is something you willingly commit yourself to and no matter what,you keep to it,always striving to overcome any rocky roads and tall mountains to see what's on the other end of the road.A journey has its ups and downs.I used to be so scared when I start falling(not literally),I always have thoughts of giving up and impossibilities that I won't be able to break free of.I have to trust God.I have to stop being ashamed of myself and my abilities,and accept them as God's gifts to me.I know God has a plan for my future,a purpose for my existence.My faith needs to be strong and unwavering.I have the love of my God with me no matter what the circumstances are.Lord,I love You......

Diao niao niao...=P

I don't know what's going on in my head.It's so blurrrrrr.....I feel blurr......wheeee....got so much nonsense I want to say but I shall not.Hahaha...Can't wait for FIRE UP!!You'd better be going!!Yes, YOU!!!The one reading this now.You don't go I whack you.=P Hahaha...

FIRE UP!!!!!!