Thankfulness.

Lord,I thank You that You have placed Your hand of protection upon the lives of those whom I care about as well as my own.You are truly the Lord who reigns over my life and every circumstance in my life,I place in Your mighty hands.I thank You that You have never let me down and that You have promised to forever be by my side to walk through every step in life with me.I thank You that You have absolute power over every aspect of this world You have created and that I can place my complete trust in You,Lord.For all that has taken place,I pray You help them work out and somehow just be Your will,Lord.I pray that every struggle be overcome and be a reason to glorify Your name even more!Despite all that has happened,Lord,I love You.Every experience be laid down at Your feet and surrendered to You.Every dream be blessed by You holy name and I know they will have their place in reality.For eveything,Lord,I thank You.I love You,Daddy!In Jesus' name,Amen.

Ode to Nonsensicalities!!!

Hello!My name is Elena Lai.I like nonsense.I speak of many types of nonsense.What is nonsense?This is nonsense.If you don't like nonsense,go away.If you can't handle nonsense,go away.I is like nonsense!I is nonsense!Wakakakakaka!!!!Nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense!!!Come and do the Nonsense Chant with me!!Hahahaha!!Nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense nonsense chant!!!!!!!!!!!Bye....For more nonsensicalities,talk to me when I'm HIGH!!!!waahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Miri..

So,I went to Miri for about a week with Rose,James and Dalvin.It was just great fun;hanging out with the leaders of SIB Canada Hill,visiting places in Miri,helping Rose out with sessions,playing around with Dalvin,James and Pastor John's daughters,Dorothea and Tiffany.Pastor John is the pastor who hosted us throughout the whole trip.He's really funny and just so much fun to be around.Hmm..I guess what we did there was mainly have fun.Pastor John's house is about a 5 minute drive from the beach and about 10 minutes walk from the house.So,on the last 2 days,James,Dalvin and I walked there and just played like little kids.Hahaha,we buried Dalvin's feet in the sand and attempted to stop the waves from destroying our 'masterpiece'.It was hilarious!!We were screaming and shouting for the waves to go away 'cause they were so crazy and big!I really miss Dorothea and Tiffany a whole lot.They're like my little sisters.=) I'll post the pictures of them soon.I think we played Uno with them almost every night.Sigh,the experience there was just so nice,although it doesn't sound like much.I guess there's no real highlight of the trip because every second there was just so unforgettable.I know it sounds corny,but it's the truth.=D

After Exam Activities

Finals have been over for quite some time now,which is a huge joy!The not very exciting thing about it is that we still have to complete our syllabus for Add Maths,Chemistry,History and Biology.Other than that,we do nothing in class except goof off and entertain each other with our crazy 'performances'.Today was especially nutsy!!It started of with the Prefects' Council Meet,where majority of the prefectorial board was absent.So the Head of Departments gave their respective reports and we did what we usually do in Council Meets;complain about the students!!!Hahahaha!!Yea,so after that we went back to our classes(we missed 1st period thanks to Council Meet =P).Since the attendance for practically all the classes except the Form 5s were so bad,most of the classes combined.4E combined classes with 4M,creating 4ME!!!=P haha..At one point of the day,4E,my class,went back to our own classroom,where we were joking around.The clowns were mainly Jaya,Izzati and me.=) Hehehe..we played 'kung fu',trying to act out parts of the movie Shaolin Soccer,but failing miserably due to excessive laughter,causing a lot of people to just break down laughing.Jaya and I challenged each other to a game called.....I have no idea what it's called,but it's the one where u play scissors paper stone,then the winner takes a step back,and the loser has to stretch their legs to reach the winner.If you don't get it,its ok.Maybe I'll show you one day.Hahaha...I won every single round!!!Wooohooo!!!Then I challenged I Izzati,and I won again!!!Wooooohooo!!!=P Then us clowns,sat on Aien's and my table,playing aeroplane.I was the pilot,and the other two clowns were my passengers.We had lots of sound effects from the other clown-wannabes...ROFL!!!=P JK...So,to sum the whole day up,there was a lot of laughing.=D Today definitely makes it onto my list of Great School Memories.Hehehe...

Random Query

If Chinese people who can't speak Chinese are referred to as "bananas",what are Indian people who can't speak Tamil called?

Tag

Lenna tagged me....

Your REAL name:
Elena Lai Pui Man

Your GANGSTA name: (first three letters of your name and izzle)
Eleizzle...errr....doesn't sound very gangsta-ish..

Your DETECTIVE name: (fav color and fav animal)
Red Dog....ala...should change my fav animal to bull...hahaha

Your SOAP OPERA name: (your middle name and the street you live on)
oh yo.....so mega weird!!!Pui Man Robson....hahahahahahaha

Your STAR WARS name: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2letters of your first)
Laiel...eh..i kinda like it..hahaha

SUPERhERO name(2nd fav colour and fav drink)
Blue H2O

IRAQI name: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your lastname, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of you dad's name, 1st letter of a cousin's first name, and last letter of your mom's name)
Linamlg.....lol...can anyone pronounce it?

Your GOTH name: (bloody and your pet's name)
Bloody Syren/MooMoo/Paris???none of them sound goth-ish...

Your MALAY name (first 3 letters of your last name and add "ah" behind)
Laiah....lai ah lai ah....!!!lol

Your MATSALLEH name (first 3 letters of your name and add "y" behind)
Eley....

Your CHINESE name (chong and 4 letters from your last name and lyn)
chong lai lyn....last name only has 3 letters..

Your INDIAN name(your first name and add wary or maniam behind)
Elenawary...ala...i think elenamaniam nicer..hahah

Your SEX name(add x in front of your name and another x behind)
Xelenax.....errrr....cacatnyer...

TAGGED PPL:
everyone who reads this!!!hahaha!!!

Rise and Fall

We were feeling so good!!!Anxious and nervous,but still,feeling extremely good.After all the hard work the past few days,the shouting and getting mixed up,then getting things right again,we didn't get to do Stomp.We were so excited,so hyped up and stuff,and they cancelled all the performances.Sorry if I sound whiny,but it's really disappointing!!So,I was in a really bad mood today.The teachers took such a long time to do their speeches.There's nothing wrong with that especially since it's their retirement,but I'm upset at the fact that the teachers didn't plan it more carefully,that they didn't anticipate things like this to happen and totally smushed our little happy moment.Lol....sigh.....and they want us to do it after the holidays.I can guarantee most of us will forget what we're supposed to play by then.I know I would,what with my horrid memory.Whatever it is,I'll be okay again tomorrow.I thank God for tomorrows...=)

STOMP!!!!

This past week,my class and Levina's class have been practising really hard for 3 of our teachers' farewell performance tomorrow.We'll be doing a simplified version of Stomp.Levina came up with the beats and stuff.Everyone in both our classes were just so proud,amazed,i dunno what of her.She really put in so much effort into it,helping all of us with our parts.It's been great fun,making noise in the physics lab(I'm still surprised none of the teachers came in to tell us to sssshhhh=P).So,we have 3 parts,excluding Levina's part.It's mega noisy but so cool!!!We started off using the metre rules in our lab as sticks.Some of the rulers are in really really really bad condition now =X,and there are dents on the chairs and tables from our 1st practice.Today,we brought in all our props which mostly consisted of household stuff.Levina brought shuttle cock cases,hangers,tupperwares,and this watering can which she loves so much.Then,some people brought chopsticks,the sticks from the flags,the big wooden pencils and stuff like that.We practiced practically the whole of yesterday and today.Only TWO days!!!!But,then again,the performance isn't very long.Still,it helped that everyone managed to pick things up fast and cooperate(most of the time).I'm just really hoping we do well and have fun tomorrow.=D

MONG CHA CHA!!!!MC kotakness...HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Hi!I'm bored!How are YOU?!?!?!?!?!!?!=D *big huge grin* i'm at home,are you at home?I'm sitting beside levina who is sitting beside me!!!!!wooohoooo!!!levina says,"SWEAT!".Levina is holding A BLUE HANKY!!!!which she used to swat her leg in school.She says,"YAY!!!".And is now watching me type this.I say,"YAY!".And we both,"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!".
Ok,now we have stopped,"HAHAHAHA!!!"But after typing this,we start,"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" again.The levina is a bit blur.We are sitting at the dining table,smelling my maid's cooking.My maid says nothing.We are waiting for my mommy to wake up so that we can use the DVD player in the bedroom,but my mommy is sick...=( We are now staring at the screen,waiting for something to happen....

STARE








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STILL STARING












OK!!!STOP STARING!!!
Ok,so now we're....still staring...OOOOOO!!!!Mommy's coming down the stairs!!!!And she puts her things on the table!!!and she walks into the kitchen!!!and we go,"HAHAHAHAHHA!" again.Now time to watch Secret...bye!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Essay on Life=)

http://www.helium.com/tm/631262/lifeone-simple-meanings-different

As the saying goes...

I have no idea how the saying goes...Hahaha...So,my sister's in this BM story telling contest in school and my dad has been saying,"Tuan-tuan dan Puan-puan,pondan-pondan dan ah kua-ah kua..." these past few days.Yep...my dad....He's insane,and I love the insane dude who's the man of the house right now.Hahaha..I love the little men of the house too!!!Brianna and Farrella=P hahaha..i love renaming my brothers.I love my crazy family..=)

Life

Lately everything around me just circles around the topic of LIFE.I honestly don't know what my views of life is.It's different all the time;changing according to my moods and situations.Sometimes I think life is scarier than death.When I was younger I used to be really scared of at the thought of death.I'm actually amazed I'm still alive today.I used to think that I would die really young.It's weird how my thoughts were so morbid at such a tender and young age.It's like that was a completely different person altogether.I'm not proud of who I used to be,but I know that without that part of my life,I probably wouldn't be who I am today.I probably wouldn't even be as accepting to things as I am now.Life is scary sometimes,beautiful but scary.Life is so precious and such an amazing gift from God.Life is also filled with unexpected twists and turns,so many ups and downs.The 'not knowing what can happen at anytime' part of life just really tests my faith in God.I keep wanting God to show me where to go in life and what exactly to do.It's so hard to completely trust Him 100% and that really makes me get so frustrated about myself.I know He's so amazing and so loving,but...why can't I just have enough faith to trust Him with everything in my life?Why do I keep questioning Him?He's shown me so many miracles already,why am I not completely convinced He'll keep me safe?Sometimes I wish I could install that in my head like a program.Then I'll never forget that and never underestimate His love for me.I love You,Lord....I really do...

My prayer..

Lord,I'm sorry I'm such a coward.I'm sorry I am so self-conscious.I'm sorry my faith in YOU can be so much bigger.I'm sorry I don't know how to handle the mistakes I've made.I'm sorry I can't look away from my past yet.I'm sorry I find it so hard that You have truly forgiven me for my sins.I'm sorry I have so much to be sorry for!!!Lord,I really don't see how You can love me so much.I don't know what You see in me and why You even bother caring for me.It's so frustrating when in my times of trouble,I don't turn to You before everyone else,that I don't search for You first.It's even more annoying that I have to be reminded of how great You are despite everything You've ever done for me and in me.I've become so attuned to living life as a routine,going through everything the same way,prayer the exact same things sometimes,and saying I'm so busy with this and that that I become so ignorant towards You,Lord.It's so hard to just come and be in that place of wanting to wait on You,and we end up making You wait on us even after all the prompting from the Holy Spirit.I know Lord,that You won't wait long for us,You have so many other people to choose from to carry out Your plans.Lord,I just feel so worthless right now.I feel so guilty of things that have just resurfaced in my life.Lord,they've just turned my life upside down,made my perception on things just run all over the place.
Lord,just take total control over me,just take control over my life.I give You my life,Lord.I surrender it all to You.Lord,help me be who You want me to be.I pray all this in Your mighty name,Amen.

Loving someone...

Loving someone is never easy.Loving someone is more than just having strong feelings for a certain person,loving a person means you are willing to sacrifice more than you are actually willing to.At least,that what it looks like to me.Loving someone is having the courage to bare your soul to that person and you aren't scared to share your everything with that person.You're ready to share all you have with that person and you're ready to fight for that person.
The greatest example of love would of course have to be of God,the father and God,the son.
Jesus knew the purpose God had put in His life.Despite knowing what He would have to go through on earth-the pain,suffering,tests,rejection,death-He went through it all anyway.He trusted God to know what was right for Him and all of God's creations.Jesus was tempted in many ways,but He never once went against God's commands because He knew God wouldn't like it.As humans,we find it so hard to follow God's commands every time.Sometimes temptation gets the better of us and we end up sinning.If we love God,we should try even harder to resist whatever temptations there are in our lives and learn to lead a life that would be pleasing to God.It's hard,no doubt,but love is so powerful.It's something God has never stopped stressing throughout the whole bible.With love in our hearts,we can stay strong against any attacks of the enemy.We have God's love upon our lives.Jesus went through all that He did so that we could lead sinless lives,so that God could forgive us for our sins.Shouldn't we be doing just that?

Back again..

My busy busy busy schedules are back once again.I'm actually thankful for it because I've been lazing around and procrastinating A LOT this past few weeks.My attitude of not wanting to do anything was really getting on my nerves because I knew I could put in so much more effort into my schoolwork.This past week has been madness.I'm someone who loves to sleep,so when I don't get enough of sleep I tend to get grumpy.A whole week of sleeping earliest at 12pm and latest at 3am because of folios and moral assignments.Finally it's over,at least for now,and I can go back to sleeping at 10pm and getting up feeling good;not sitting on my bed for 10 minutes before my brain actually starts to function properly.
My teacher chose me for MSSKL Merentas Desa.I'm not sure why because I'm not a long distance runner,but I'm up for a challenge,so I don't mind.Today we had our first training session in school.No one told me about it until I reached school in the morning.One of my juniors asked me if I brought my PJ clothes,and I didn't.Thank God I had my was wearing my school shorts under my skirt,so I just had to find a shirt.My teacher gave us 45 minutes to complete the whole 5km distance.I was worried I wouldn't beat the time,and at 1 point I thought I was already over the time limit.When I reached the ending point,my teacher told me everyone finished within the time limit.I was so happy!And I was only about 4 minutes later than the 1st girl.Whee...the training I did on my own really helped.I found out where my weaknesses were today,so I know what to focus on now.I have to thank my "coach" for helping me with the training. =D

The Amazing MotorBus!!!!and My sister's super strength!!!

MotorBus...and Farrel...=D

Trying to act macho..sigh...

Now,this is seriously MACHO!!!!=P

Enough macho-ness..Thank you Amelia..=D

Save Me!!!!

Save me from my brothers!!!!Ahhhh!!!!=P Hahahaha..there was this frog or toad or whatever that has been taking refuge in our house for the past few days.I came back from school 2 days ago and it was at the foot of the stairs leading to the dining room.I saw it,and guess what??I screamed like a mad woman!!!=P Hahahaha...Running up the stairs and jumping around saying "KATAK!!!KATAK!!!!".Thinking back,it was hilarious!!My brother,Brian just found the frog again.He was sitting beside me talking to me for about 5 minutes and I had no idea he was holding the frog in his hands!!When I finally noticed it,thank God he wasn't beside me.I would have started a screaming frenzy again.Right,so that's Brian for you.He used to want to be a vet by the way,so that would explain why he's not afraid of animals.

Let's move on to Farrel now.Farrel is probably planning on being an inventor.That still needs to be confirmed.Yea,anyway,he was playing around with his toy truck and then he took the motorcycle helmet and put it on top the bus.Alas!!The motorbus was created.Or has it already been created?O.o???Anyways..I'll post the pictures later..=D

Siblings

One thing I've always loved is seeing people be with their siblings.You get to see that special bond formed between them is such a welcoming sight.Even if the person doesn't have a sibling,you see that bond,that connection between that person and his/her really close friend.Of course,nothing can give you the exact same feeling you get when you're with your real sibling,but that special relationship with your friends are something amazing as well.I'm not close to all my siblings.I have 3 younger siblings by the way.I'm the eldest of us 4.I'm especially close to my brother,Brian,who is right after me.Amelia,my sister after Brian really looks up to me.I can tell by the way she's always asking me for advice with her schoolwork,what activities she should join in school and what she should be doing on that day.It's easier talking to Brian since our age gap is smaller and he's going through a lot of things I've already gone through with my parents.That helps me be more understanding towards what he's facing now,and it's easier to help him as well.I love the fact that he isn't shy to hug me or show affection in public.Sometimes I need to nudge him for a hug,but most days he gives them willingly. =P My sister is more of the baby in the family than my youngest brother,Farrel is.Farrel is very independent.He's the only one out of 4 of us who didn't cry on our first day of kindergarten.He's really sociable and makes friends easily.He can be quite irritating sometimes as well.He's outspokenness intimidates his classmates sometimes.My naughty brother is only 7,and he's already kissed 3 girls his age.Such a nonsense. =P Amelia on the other hand,is the shy,conservative type of girl.She can be really sweet when she wants to,but when she's mad,it's like World War 3 is here.She's extremely smart and hardworking,she's also really good in sports,like me!!!=P Hahahaha...all my siblings are really good at sports actually.I love them all really really really much.We do quarrel and fight sometimes,but it's never made our relationship with one another waver ,instead,it's made us so much closer to each other.We're learning more about each other everyday,building our trust towards one another,learning to be more understanding towards each other and loving each other even more everyday.=D

Making choices...

...are never easy.For me it has been especially difficult to make decisions regarding my school activities.Every year,we have to choose our own clubs and stuff like that.Since Form 1 I've wanted to join the athletics team in my school.Since Form 1,so many things held me back.Things like not having anyone to accompany me in the club,the fact that I don't like the club teacher and she despises me,and now,the fact that I have only one more year in MGS and I still have so many other clubs I want to join;Handball,Volleyball and some other stuff.Sigh,sigh,sigh....Don't know which to choose.So little time left for High School,have to really make the most out of it.One thing to look forward to tomorrow,Volleyball match between my friends!!Whee...

MGSKL CANTEEN DAY 2007!!!

VENUE: MGSKL(near Lake Garden and Masjid Negara)

DATE: 28th July 2007,Saturday

TIME: 9:00-12:45(If u ask am or pm..try using common sense..)

ACTIVITIES: Haunted House(make sure u come,except guys.Guys aren't allowed in the Haunted house.so cacat!!!sighzzz!!!!),Dance Floor(umm..yea..u dance),LOADS N LOADS OF FOOD!!!,Mazes,games,stuff la..just come n see la..

Come la..it's to raise money for our school.Every year we have to do something so raise money for the school since the government doesn't support us financially 100%.So yea,come support us and be a kind and giving soul=D...hahaha

Random pics..

Amiera,Santira,me,Jaya,Aziera after Prefect's Installation,in our class.

Izzati,me and Jaya.Izzati look so blur..hahaha..

Sumaiya,Levina,me,and Lenna.Notice I don't have hands?=P

Levina,Lenna Kah Wei and me,on a tree.I think this was taken in Form 2.=D

Kah Wei,me,Levina and Sumaiya at the APICTA announcement dinner.That was when we found out we were going to Macau together.=D

Canada vs Singapore

The two countries I'll almost 100% be going to do college in.I was just talking with my mom just now about why she wanted me to do Form 6 instead of just going straight to college.I had no idea she'd already plan so much for my future.I mean,I know she's thought about it and all,but I guess the fact that she's never discussed it with me before this just made me oblivious to it.It being my mom thinking about what I was going to do after SPM.Well,she told me the reason she wanted me to do Form 6 is so that if I end up going to Singapore,then I won't have to take O levels and can get started straight away with A levels.SPM;it used to be like a fairytale to me.I never thought I'd in a sense make it to this level.Not making it not as in not achieving results good enough,but not being alive.I used to think that I'd die young for some weird and morbid reason.So yeah,enough of my extremely 'unique' mind.I really can't believe that I'm turning 16 this year.I can barely remember what I was like in primary school.Being a teenager used to seem so faraway and I just couldn't wait to get my IC.My IC was like proof that I'm finally a teen.Now,I wish I could turn back time and just be a kid again.Things were so much more easier;living a naive and simple life where things that used to be so important then just seem so silly now.The world look so huge to me last time.Even a car ride that lasted 20 minutes felt like 3 hours of non-stop fun,looking at the scenery and imagining I could one day drive.Now,in probably about a year or so,I'll really be able to drive(if I pass my driving test),and even driving won't thrill me anymore.Growing up just takes all the wonder out of life.Everything that seemed like such a task and challenge when we were younger now seem so insignificant.At least,that's how I look at it.Now,thinking of college,it still feels a little far away,yet,I can tell time is just going to breeze by and then I'll be in a different country with a whole new group of people,learning new things and leaving a lot of things behind(temporarily).The thought scares me a lot.I guess life is about changes.No change,I don't think that's possible at all.So,whatever changes take place in my life in time to come,I really want to do my best to embrace it and not shirk away from it.

Biology...

WE DISSECTED RATS!!!!!!Yup,in Biology lesson today we actually dissected rats.We were divided into 5 groups and each group had their own rat.I was in the same group as Jaya,Lenna,Shona and Siew May.We were all really freaked out.The rats were so cute and we felt so heartless and cruel.Our first instructions were to nail the rat onto the plate thingy it was on.The first image that came to my head was the scene from Passion of Christ and I nearly felt sick.Thank God I didn't!We spent like 5 minutes just holding the hammer and the nail,not wanting to poke holes into the poor rat's tiny paws,but knowing it was something we had to do,we nailed the paws after teacher helped us with the 2 top paws.We cut the skin,then the I have no idea what and finally opened up the whole belly part of the rat.Then,we had to nail the skin to the plate as well to make sure it wouldn't get folded and obstruct the view of the rat's organs.The heart was still pumping and it was so tiny.The small intestine and stomach were the most disgusting looking.Then teacher came to inspect on our rat.She took 2 of the apparatus and started shifting the organs around;from the right side of the rat to the left and back again.Then she showed us the kidneys,which were actually hidden under all the other organs,which explains why she was shifting the organs around.They looked so mushy and soft,wherever the apparatus thing touched the stomach,it would leave a mark like when we poke something into plasticine,except it goes back into shape.Then,we also had to check the gender of a rat.At first,before dissecting the rat,we thought it was a male,since there was the 'thing' there.After dissecting,we found out it was actually a female.We saw the fallopian tubes and ovaries.The ovaries were so extremely tiny.Jaya,Siew May and I had to leave the class earlier to go for prefect's recess.And that was when my teacher said they were going to dissect the head to see the brain!!So unfair!!So we had no choice but be good prefects and go eat and prepare for duty.Jaya and me,being in the same department,breezed through our duty and ran to the lab again.Unfortunately,when we reached the lab,they had already thrown the rats into the dustbin and were washing everything up.Good thing our teacher let us dig through the rubbish to look for the right rat.They only dissected 1 or 2 of the rats in the head,so we had to dig through the gloves and the other rats to look for the 'right rat'.Then after a few minutes of digging,we finally found it!!Hooray..the brain was also very tiny.All in all,it turned out to be a very good experience.I still feel a little bad for having to cut the poor rat open.Eventually,the rat's heart stopped beating.Bye bye rat...=(

Pregnant Women

During English,we had to talk about the types of food growing children,teenagers,pregnant women and elderly people needed.We were given yesterday to prepare,but as usual,my group just decided to wing it.Despite the lack of preparation,our teacher said we were quite good.=D Then while another group was presenting their discussion,the whole class got sidetracked and started focusing on the topic of pregnant women.Our teacher told us about well,childbirth and how she had to go through a ceaserian or however you spell it.This is the down side of being in a girls school,the teachers just go on and on about this particular topic in very detailed and accurate description.They have no mercy on us because 'You girls will go through it one day.Don't worry,it isn't AS PAINFUL as it sounds'.Right,that makes me feel so much better.My friend Jaya,she was so funny!!Whenever my teacher described how they sew the wound after ceaserian,she screamed so loudly until everyone in class was laughing so much.She kept saying,"So painful!So painful!".My teacher was laughing so much too.So now,my whole class is freaked out at the idea of getting pregnant,including me.=P Then towards the end of the class,the last group did their presentation.It ended up to be a debate session.Everyone kept disagreeing with whatever my friend Thaaraniy was saying.It was so fun!We were supposed to write an essay,but in the end,we ran out of time because of we spent so much time debating and squealing.I love my classmates..=D Being in an all girls school really isn't that bad.Those who think otherwise,too bad for you.=D

My beautifooooo badge=D

I like my silver badge..hahaha=P

2007/08 Prefectorial Board Installation...Tick...

Yupzz...today was my school's prefect installation day.It was the fastest installation I have ever experienced,and I've experienced a few before.I have no idea why,but it feels like time is just water flowing over my fingers;something I experience,but can never really get a hold on.So,this year I'm Head of Cleanliness,something I never thought I'd be in charge of.I'm so NOT clean.Hahaha,but I love my senior Ellana,and my 2 partners,Jaya and Cynthia.They're such clowns and really reliable people.They make picking up rubbish all over the school so much easier and quite fun honestly.In MGS,we have a tradition of passing the torch,or rather the candle from the outgoing board of prefects to the upcoming board.Then,the new Head girls light some candles and pass it to their Ex-cos.It has been a fun week of fooling around while practicing for the installation and goofing off when we're really supposed to be cleaning and decorating the school hall.Plus,we missed so many lessons.Hahahah..and the teachers couldn't scold us for it.=P Now that the installation is done,that's one thing I can tick off my list of things to do.The next 2 items on my list are the last CF meeting of the year and worship team auditions,both of which are really important to me and are making me feel so extremely nervous.This CF meeting is mega important because it's to steer the Christians in my school back to having the right attitude about CF.God has just really stirred my spirit a lot about this particular thing.I'm so sick and tired of seeing Christians in my school who'd rather do other things than put God first.School is another place where you're supposed to shine for God,not just for total and complete fun and fooling about.Just because our pastors and parents don't see us in school as much as they do in church is not a reason for us to not worship God in school.You're supposed to be everything you can be for God in every aspect,every place of your life,NOT just in church where people see you and expect it of you.What about what GOD expects of YOU??Don't you think that's the most important reason?During Fire Up,God really challenged me to trust Him and put this event in His hands and I do trust Him with all my heart,soul and might.Plans might not be going as smoothly as I'd like them to be,but that doesn't matter,because I know that this is what God wants to see happening in my school;His children coming back to the Lord,turning away from the worldly things and just worshiping Him again.I get so disappointed seeing the CF members having the attitude of 'I'd rather do something else than attend CF'.If I myself am this disappointed at them,how disappointed is God at them?What makes me even more disappointed is the fact that I myself tend to get drifted away from God and to the ways of man.I'm not perfect,Lord.No where near it and I can never be,but Lord,I want to be the best that I can be for You.Whenever I stumble or fall,I feel so ashamed,so full of anger at my own self for not being able to do things for myself sometimes.I get so tempted to cry out for Your help,but it feels like I'm a burden to You sometimes.Lord,I know You want to be involved in my life in every way possible,I know now You want me to call for Your help and to share all my problems with You.Sometimes it's just hard,knowing that so many other people have problems way bigger than mine.It just makes me feel inadequate for seeking Your help over tiny matters sometimes,but I know Lord,You'll still help me and be there for me.I love You,Jesus!I'm going to push all those insecurities away and just focus on You.Nothing else matters except You.

WHY????????(X10000)

How is it possible that people have the heart,or should I say brains to murder anyone???Murder is one thing,burning the poor person up and then chopping the body up and scattering it around???What do you call that?I CALL IT PURE STUPIDITY/INSANITY/BRAINLESSNESS/HEARTLESSNESS/(insert any other insulting word here).I was so shocked and disgusted by today's front page news(on the Star).How does a person live with himself/herself knowing he/she did something that horrible and plain wicked??How do you NOT feel bad when you're doing it??What is wrong with these people's minds?Are they mentally retarded or just plain SICK!!!It's terrible to know that they are living in the same country as you and who knows how many others are out there in the world.How do they bare the guilt?Or are they immune to guilt or something??Reading the article just made me so mad.I was furious and just wanted to punch the stupid person.She was just a little girl and they had to do that to her!!!!!!!Dude!!!If you wanted to hurt someone so badly,just try slapping yourself across the face REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD 100 TIMES!!!That should leave you a mark for quite some time.Why take away the life of an innocent child?If getting a slap is already painful enough,imagine YOURSELF getting burnt and chopped like some piece of meat!!I really can't imagine what's in your retarded head!!!!!!You just piss me off so much!!!!!!!

I love...

being loved by God
being in God's presence
the Holy Spirit stirring me up inside
my relationship with God
being God's child
the fact that I was created by God
that I have a huge family all around the world through Christ
knowing I have a purpose
worshiping God
learning more and more about God
knowing God more and more
talking to God
God....

Proper

OK!Time for a proper post now.So I went for FIRE UP!!! and it was AWESOME!!!!Pastor Michael was hilarious.I was practically on the floor,laughing so hard at his jokes and stories.Right..was supposed to tell you more about it..but I feel emo now.*whacks forehead* So,I'll just tell you the funny stuff that took place and save the deep eye bawling stuff for another day.=D We took the bus from church to GT.We being Levina,Kim and me.We met Li Yan and Levina's cg member there.In the bus,they played westlife songs.I highly dislike westlife!!!!Levina used to love westlife so much when she was younger,she still does actually.So she was singing along with her cg member and dancing weird dances.They were also making funny sounds that made some people just turn to stare at them with the 'o.O??' expression.Kim took out her phone and recorded part of it.Ask her if you want to see another one of Levina's cacatedness =P. So, after everything right,Levina,Kim and I were the last ones there together with Joel(who left soon after) and Rose,who was waiting for us.Levina,being the brainiac that she is,sat on the wheelchair and started rolling around,or attempted to at least.She couldn't steer it.It kept going round and round in the same direction.I was laughing so much until tears came out.Then we started jumping around the place-it was huge and dark and super echo-y- so that the mosquitoes wouldn't suck our blood.In the end,we followed Rose to the South Pacific Restaurant in around PJ since it was already super late.Levina's mom picked us up from there.During the ride there,we sat on Rose's car seat.Let me elaborate on that.Rose's car seat was folded since half the keyboard was poking out of the boot.The boot wasn't big enough to fit the keyboard,so half of it was protruding through where the seat was supposed to be.So it was also sitting on the seat with Levina and me.We looked like super tall people whose bodies were too long for the car until our heads were bent to one side since there wasn't enough space to sit upright and not be stopped by the ceiling.Hahaha..If you don't get it,it's ok.I'm not sure I'm speaking english right now either.Feeling a little light headed and my eye is swollen.WHOOPEE!!I shall leave the computer now..Farewell!!!=D

Just Had To..hahaha

You Are 12% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world. And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

I laughed so hard reading the description...

Elena Doodles...

Something I did during 2 periods of Physics and 2 periods of Biology.We're dissecting rats next week!!!AHHHH!!!Excited or Terrified??

Of Amazingly Ordinary Days

It's so amazing when sometimes you're just going through your day and the simple things just trigger the Holy Spirit inside us.When you feel like today's nothing special and it's just another day you have to spend doing the same things again.I've never felt so connected to the world like I do now.It's like having a private movie playing in my head showing me scenes of the many people around the world.Faces I don't know just appear and it's as if I can feel the things they're feeling now;happiness,pain,anger,frustration,love,sympathy.I love the fact that even though there are over I don't know how many billion people in the world,we're all connected in some special and unique way.We all have similar thoughts,opinions,feelings about at least one thing in our lives.God just gets you thinking about the thing you want to do the most despite the tight schedules and the busyness we tend to get caught up in.He starts questioning me about my plan for the future and how committed I will be to get that plan started.Journeys are never easy,but they are very simple.A journey,to me,is something you willingly commit yourself to and no matter what,you keep to it,always striving to overcome any rocky roads and tall mountains to see what's on the other end of the road.A journey has its ups and downs.I used to be so scared when I start falling(not literally),I always have thoughts of giving up and impossibilities that I won't be able to break free of.I have to trust God.I have to stop being ashamed of myself and my abilities,and accept them as God's gifts to me.I know God has a plan for my future,a purpose for my existence.My faith needs to be strong and unwavering.I have the love of my God with me no matter what the circumstances are.Lord,I love You......

Diao niao niao...=P

I don't know what's going on in my head.It's so blurrrrrr.....I feel blurr......wheeee....got so much nonsense I want to say but I shall not.Hahaha...Can't wait for FIRE UP!!You'd better be going!!Yes, YOU!!!The one reading this now.You don't go I whack you.=P Hahaha...

FIRE UP!!!!!!

Wilderness Camp Langkawi 07!!!!!!!!Team VEGA!!!

Day 1
At the base camp.
Meeting everyone for the 1st time.

Our trainers,Abang Boy(the super poser wearing the cap=P)

Kak Nora...

Seperating our things to put into our camping bags.

We had limited amount of things that we could bring.The only electronic object we could bring was our cameras,and I didn't have one.Sigh...

On the boat,going to our 1st camp site.

1st Camp Site,Tiloy Island.

Taklimat by out trainers.What's taklimat in English?I forgot..hahaha

Setting up our campsite,the kitchen roof.

This is what our 5 star toilet looked like after building it up.

Our tent for sleeping and changing clothes.Not exactly private or comfortable,and it didn't keep out the rain either.

The 1st hygiene team building the toilet.We each took turns to be the hygiene team,cooking team and leaders.The hygiene team was in charge of the toilet and washing things up.The cooking team,in charge of cooking of course and the leaders told us what to do and made sure we kept to the schedule and didn't exceed the time limits we were given for our duties,at least they tried.When in Malaysia,follow Malaysian timing;always late.Hahahaha

The views from our 1st campsite.Rainbow;a sign of hope.I really needed that sign that day,I was feeling so homesick.

A little blurry,but still a very beautiful picture of the sunset.

2nd Day at Tiloy Island

Learing how to handle the kayak and rowing with the oars.Sleeeeeeepy..We had to wake up at 5:30am every morning.

Getting used to the PFD(life jackets) and finally 'bathing' on the second day.Hahaha...the guy making the funny face is Ah Meng from Sabah.

Wheee....we're floating...

On the kayaks in 'roughed up' position.

Posing for the camera.The water was really deep by the way.

We kayaked all the way to Pulau Bumbung Kecil for lunch.One of our teachers,napping.Hahaha...

After lunch,we kayaked back to Tiloy Island.

Another beautiful view from our campsite.

Washing up the pots and pans after dinner.

3rd Day

Morning exercises.

My friend Fafa and I taught our team how to play FasaBili while waiting for the tongkang to bring us to the Reef Explorer,a ship.

On the tongkang.Lenna and I weren't supposed to talk to each other because she was in the other team,but we talked anyway.Hahaha....

VEGA,the other team is Rigel.

The tongkang.

Rope activities on the Reef Explorer.This activity is called Postis and another activity we did was Boom.We had to walk on a pole which was thicker than the rope,but it was also a lot higher compared to this activity.

Still on the Reef Explorer.

Learning about maritime activities and how to steer the ship.

At the base Camp

After the activities on the Reef Explorer,we went back to the base camp using the tongkang and took a lorry to our next campsite which was on the same island as the base camp,Pulau Tuba.

Preparing dinner after a long day.

Washing up after dinner at our 2nd camp site.

That night we did star gazing and learnt how to dance the pocok pocok,however you spell it,a dance from Sabah.

4th Day

We learned how to use the compass.

Learned how to determine the bearing and which direction we had to go that would lead us to our 3rd and final campsite.

Listening to Abang Boy and Kak Nora explain things to us.We had to lead ourselves,our trainers and our teachers to the campsite.Kak Nora and Abang Boy weren't going to say anything unless we were in deep trouble,meaning lost.Hahahaha...

Getting ready to start trekking.

Trekking to our next campsite.

The beach near our 3rd campsite.1st row from the left:Cjj,Cikgu Nizam,Ika,FaFa,Hong,Cikgu Zam.
2nd row from left:Jeeva,Amir,Ida,Chuu Voon,Ah Meng,Me,Joon,Nabilah.

3rd row from left:Standing : Saddam,Fahmi,Swee Chin,Izatti.Bending down : Pinat.

We had to do this activity called Solo Camp where we had to eat lunch alone.We were each stationed at a particular place and were told not to interact with one another although we were near by.We had to stay like that for around 2 1/2 hours,so naturally,we sneaked around,chatted,played games despite the direct orders we were given.It was hillarious!!!We did silly stunts and attempted to play mafia.Someone kept revealing who they were.Hahaha...

Back at the 3rd camp site

It was our last night with one another,so we were all emo.We had a session where we had to carry the lantern and either say sorry or thank you to one person.

I cried..hahaha...

5th Day

We had to clean up the camp site,tear down the shelters,kitchen and toilet and pack everything to bring back to the base camp.

Saddam and CJJ packing the camping bags.

VEGA Group Picture

Cleaning the toilet walls in the sea.

They were all so stubborn.None of them wanted to go in the water,so I splashed in and dragged them one by one.Hahahahah....

Packing everything into the speed boat and zooming off to the base camp.

After 5 days of not bathing,we were given permission to bathe!!!!The guys bathed in this cacat place and the girls got sort of proper toilets.Hahahaha!!Too bad for the guys.P.S.I did not take this photo......=P

Half of the VEGA team after bathing and after the last day performances.

Joon and me..=D

At langkawi

We went to the Bird Park.The bunnies were so extremely cute.I carried an eagle there,but I don't have the picture now.Lenna!!!Give me my picture!!!=P

Lenna and the bunnies.

1st row from left: Dunno who,Fa Fa and me
2nd row: Hong,Cikgu Nizam and another teacher.

Hong,Fa Fa and me.

My poser friend,the monkey!!!

Peacock..

White peacock.The first time I ever saw one.Reminds me of the story of the crow and the peacock.